Many of us take for granted that we will get a second chance when we wake up in the morning and yet I'm not sure we recognize it when it comes. I'm also not sure we realize that some day that second change won't come. As I've said so many goodbyes in the past year I have realized how important every day is. Yet, I still find myself putting off things and not using my time the way I would if I knew how quickly it could slip away.
There was a time when I felt panicked and immobilized with fear that my life would end suddenly with a long "to do" list unfinished. I felt shame and guilt around not being productive every second of the day. I got over that! When emerged was a new balance of knowing that like every person on the planet my days are numbered. And today I get to begin again; to complete things that are still undone; to say what is wanting to be said; to write the letters I have put off